indulgence has been the theme of my days lately but lately, it doesn’t feel so wholly rapturous. i’m noticing how pleasures of indulgence feel like in body, the way they move in and out, how they change in intensity. i’m noticing that as pleasure forms, climaxes and dissipates, it is less about joy over the indulgence and more about the gross sensations that have been activated across body. i’m noticing that although these sensations are pleasant, the reactions of craving attached to them are not. through experiencing its pattern, indulgence has become more mindful.